Sunday, April 30, 2006
我喜欢我。
我喜欢肥皂泡沫呈现出来的深白色，喜欢它纯洁无邪的色彩。
我喜欢巧克力，喜欢它带给我的幸福的感觉。
我喜欢在早上冲凉，喜欢在那只属于自己的空间思考。
我喜欢睡觉前看蜡笔小心漫画，喜欢带着愉快的心情入睡。
我喜欢那些上我鸡皮疙瘩掉一地的歌曲，喜欢它带给我的感动。
我喜欢[歪]叫我[妮妮妮。。。]时的反感，喜欢之后一起地大笑。
我喜欢和[欢]一起看恐怖片，喜欢和她一起尖叫的感觉。
我喜欢和喜欢我的朋友在一起，喜欢对她们装可爱撒娇。
我喜欢喜欢着的我，喜欢只属于我的我。
我就是喜欢。
Nini @ 2:17 PM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
现在的心情好好噢~
原来只要冷静下来，什么事都没问题的。我真的应该学着冷静地去面对问题。把不开心的事塞在心里只会让自己痛苦罢了。
始终觉得，用华文比较能够表达自己。真得很不可思议，用华文我就可以写出美丽的句子。
回想起来，中午我真得很幼稚。我似乎把我所面对的一切问题都怪在别人身上。想起来都觉得很丢脸；我原来还只是一个长不大的孩子。如果不能冷静下来，我大概会永远怨着这一天吧。明明知道不应该，我还是不断作出令自己觉得惭愧的事。心情变好之后，就觉得原来今天并不不是那么糟糕。我发现，这个世界的确是美丽的，只要你以开朗的心情去看它。
那些开朗的人，一旦面对问题，会用理智的方法去解决，并不会因感情用事而做令自己后悔的事。面对生命中的不如意，他们大概只会以笑而之吧。这么活着，就不会以那些琐事来束缚自己，并能活得轻松愉快。而我，什么时候能做到这一点呢？我真得很容易感情用事，常常悔于当初。我所后悔的，就是应为我的固执和坏脾气，而伤害了关心我的人。错了才来后悔，真的已经太晚了。而我也很无奈啊。。。
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看，多么美丽的星星火花，不是吗？
我的确错过了许多生命中的美丽风景。应此，我会学着以更乐观的视野看这个世界。
Nini @ 8:27 PM
Everything doesnt seems to be right today.
I wanted to write my blog in chinese then i realised that it totally ruined by blog when i published the post. -- unhappy
I seem to be offending people today. First it was my mum, then it was waileng, after that everyone started ignoring me.
Fine. I don't need anyone to be bothered; i don't want to bother anyone either.
What did i do? I didnt do anything. Is it their problem? Or does the problem lie with me?
Why can't i get along with anybody?
I'm sick of studying for mid-year; im sick of facing the bio textbook; im sick of my mum glaring at me everytime she walked past.
And now i want to write something, and my blog won't work.
I just want to lock myself in my room and wait for this cursed day to past.
What should i do? Can someone help me? I feel so disgusted; at everyone and at myself.
I feel so sick that i wanted to throw up.
I should be more optimistic, but how am i able to when everyone is turning their backs against me? Yes i'm sadistic. so what? Would anyone care?
I'm just not happy. Is that a crime? Did i lose the right to be unhappy?
That irritating kid of my neighbour's, yelling and screaming. I don't like children. I don't see what's so cute about them.
Nini @ 6:09 PM