Wednesday, November 29, 2006
There it is, the horrible feeling of emptiness again.
It suddenly occurred to me that going to Japan may not be such a good thing. For the first time in my life, I fear taking the plane. Now I know why I love staying at home so much. Because I don't have to do anything, I will not do anything wrong. Right now I'm just feeling, pathetic.
Maybe I just felt lonely and sad because I can't go grad night and while everyone is having fun I'm stuck on the little seat on the plane. No, by then everyone would have fallen asleep.
Everytime I think of the ugly winter clothes and the busy schedule I just feel depressed even more. I really hope, really, that this trip would not be as bad as I think.
So I pray, and pray.
'Everyday I Pray to help me through the day
to make myself stronger...and I Pray' -- Shinhwa, Once in a Lifetime
Nini @ 5:52 PM
Monday, November 27, 2006
Forgive me for the poor graphic, i did it in a jippie. And oh, the font is 'You are what you eat'.
OLD CH*** K** is such a disappointment. URGh. (for privacy reasons I shall not disclose the name of this store which sells unhealthy, deep-fried, oily food)
I used to like those crispy fried-sotong-on-a-stik... until today. It was raining, it was cold, I was hungry. The prawn cakes were cold and hard, but I didn't complain; at least there were REAL prawns in them. The fried-sotong-on-a-stik was unbearable. Not only was it not crispy, it was wet and slimy, the sotong was. Oh yes, and there was this disgusting flour-ey texture to it. URGh. I think they didn't deep fry it long and thoroughly enough. It wasn't cooked, it was raw, and I dumped it into the bin, slimy and unfinished.
Then it happened. At the Bukit Batok interchange I saw this person eating OLD CH*** K**; and the very same fried-sotong-on-a-stik. I was desperately screaming "NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!" in my head while I watched him put those evil, giggling, raw sotongs-wrapped-in-batter into his mouth. At this moment I decided I can't bear to watch this sin anymore. No. Never would I want anymore of this sinful thing.
Maybe it was just that particular OLD CH*** K** store that's terrible; even so I wouldn't want to eat anymore fried-sotong-on-a-stik for the time being. And listen to my advice, DON'T TOUCH IT NO!!
Nini @ 7:15 PM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
I feel horribly empty these days. Why? I don't know why.
Been having weird dreams too. I wished I could dream of Sungie but all that appear in my dreams are freaky scenes of crabs and pork ribs. Yes, crabs and pork ribs. I wish I could eat them but, apparently I was very afraid of them in my dreams. Why oh why? Why deny me of food? I'm not really complaining but if there were beef and mushrooms it would have been even yummier. Oh yes babe. XD
Wanted to do to some research on Hokkaido before I go there next Wednesday. So I found out that many visitors actually go to Hokkaido to visit the national parks, and engage in outdoor activities such as camping and hiking. Well basically these are the things I dread the most and THE thing that got me excited the most was its chocolate factory. Yum. Furthermore, who would want to camp outdoors in cold harsh winter? You would probably be frozen to death the first night. Chocolate darling, here I come. And oh yes, the dairy products are definitely worth looking forward to; ice cream, milk and cheese. KWEEE~~
The travel guide almost reminded me to "Check out the hairy crabs (毛蟹 kegani) and sushi." Of course I would. What else would I want to do other than stuff myself with food? Not much shopping to do there, not like I like shopping that much; but luckily we would be going to Tokyo on the last day.
One important thing to take note of is, Japan's stuffs are amazingly expensive. I really wonder what I can bring back at the end of the day.
Nini @ 3:13 PM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
The new James Bond is so old and ugly. Couldn't believe he can become James Bond. Even though one doesn't have to be James Bond to be handsome, one should at least be handsome (and young) to be James Bond. I'm making sense, oh yes.
Eek, 老男人. *disgusted*
Anyways, Leng requested a new picture (surprise surprise!), so here it is.
Since I'm too lazy busy to write a proper post I shall only post this picture.
So beautiful. And Sungie's birthday is 2 days away. Woots!
Nini @ 12:17 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Just now I was looking at an icon I made,
and I couldn't help but shout out loud,
"SUNGIE YOU'RE JUST TOO CUTE!!!"
Nini @ 10:11 PM
Friday, November 17, 2006
Hee, blog twice a day, I've got just too many emotions.
Just now I remembered how I cried during the last day of primary school, and how my mum called me stupid. I think I'm really emotional, because this minute I can be crying, and the next I can be laughing like mad. I know it's not like we will never meet again, but it just feels weird.
I was reminded of something Tohru's dad said, "以为那间小学校就是全世界... 证明你只是个小鬼 ." (I love that chapter, it's such a cute story)
是. 我就是一个小鬼. 我天真的伤心. 我就是奇怪.
(Off-topic) And I LOVE how people mistake sungie as a girl. nyaanyaanyaanyaanyaa~~
Nini @ 5:26 PM
I'm trying to find a word to describe my feelings now.
I don't feel excited at all that 'O' levels have finished. Well, maybe a little bit, a little bit... And I feel sad for abit, maybe it's because I won't be seeing Kiwi or Manly or (goofy) Leng for a long long time. (even thought I have to go back to school next tuesday) I try to tell myself that it's over, IT'S OVER, but I just don't like to be at home alone. I used to like holidays, but this is just so different.
And there's that, I don't know what to do now that exams are over. Now that I don't need to study, what can I do? I've really looked forward to today, to freedom, but...
I feel like I'm just released from jail. *ties a yellow ribbon on the tree*
I know this feeling.
Pure emptyness.
And I don't like it. I just feel I miss something, and I'm sad.
Now I'm crying as I type, because I have to say goodbye, to studying and many things.
因为离别让人感到寂寞.
Now just let me cry into my pillow.
Sayonara.
Nini @ 4:54 PM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
I realised that I come home crying everyday of this week; and there's more to come.
Actually it wasn't that bad today, considering that physics was easy peasy. I guess I just couldn't accept the fact that I couldn't get an a1 for Geog again. Again. Haix. Cry me a river baby.
But Geog was also okay. I just felt depressed when I found out that 2 of my answers are wrong. *sob* But, but... what's worse is that, no one wants to console me. My mum, haix, there's really no one like her. 幸灾乐祸. That's what they mean by 代沟. Parents really shouldn't blame the child for being rebellious when he refuses to tell them anything. The problem is actually not being able to communicate.
If qiuhong was around she'll 讲笑话安慰我.
Haix. That's why life is as miserable as can be. 人生也不过如此啊.
But Vivo city was fun, stepping water（踩水）, dancing and singing, and getting your butt wet and humid; and there's still sungie. XD
Nini @ 7:13 PM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
I must be the dumbest thing that ever lived. If I really drowned, I deserved it.
I couldn't believe that I would have got the binomial theorem wrong! Especially when it's printed BIG on the 2nd page! T.T SOMEONE KILL ME!!!
This little big mistake made me lose 6 marks.
66666SIX666SIXSIXSIX六 marks!!!!!! OMG!!!
Maybe the one that should row a sampan to the middle of the pacific ocean, jump down and drown is MEMEMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! T.T
I think I better study harder for paper 2 and NEVER go to the toilet with Jan before the exam and be almost late.
Oh yah, not to mention that I wrote on ALL my papers "A Maths Paper 2". Who could be dumber? (although I changed it to paper 1 after I finally woke up at 30 minutes before the end of the exam)
Nini @ 5:53 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
... A New Layout! WOOTS!
Actually this was made by me long time ago, but I haven't got the time to make a new one so, here it is! TADAA! The coding took me hella long time though.
I made losta Sungie (and other) icons the past few days too! xD
(Credits to 100x100_brushes, fangirls_inc, colorfilter.)
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE~
He's too adorable!
Nini @ 11:13 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Today I woke up very early to photoshop.
Begin mass downloading at 10.30am and now I have over 200 textures in my computer. Super happy.
I'm getting too obsessed over photoshop. It's not good, especially in the middle of exams. But I do take time to revise, that's why I find yesterday's E Maths paper 2 very easy. I AM NOT SINNED.
Since I have more time today, I shall make a couple of icons before I start to revise A Maths. XD
Nini @ 11:59 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Never had a day like this. TWO horrible papers in a day. The wait was twice as horrible. Biology was considerably easy, easier than the prelims in fact, but why oh why why didn't I study dialysis? WHYWHYWHYWHY[WAIWAI]TELLMEWHY?
Two lines were given for the definition of genes. My answer : It stores genetic information.
Pathetic, isn't it?
I couldn't believe it. Geography paper was actually tougher than the prelim paper. And I so so much regret not studying hard enough for prelims Geography. TT.TT The questions were so.... minor...? Why must Singapore protect its coastline? (or something like this) How on earth out of earth would I care know?
But nevertheless the worst is O-V-E-R! Now I just pray and hope I won't get less than an A1 for Chemistry.
Nini @ 5:49 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
It's 8thNovember! Actually it's not such an amazing day, considering that there are Biology and Geog papers tomorrow. Hell has finally arrived, but the worst has yet to come! TT.TT
Made 2 Junki icons for Qiuhong yesterday (although I banned myself from using photoshop). I was so high that I couldn't sleep till 2am. Made another one just now (I really shouldn't be doing this, but...). It wasn't as nice as the ones I made yesterday. Guess I wasn't as inspired today.
Anyways, I just wanted to post the icons I made this week and last week.
Actually there's one more... but I am too afraid to post it. >.<
Not really a fan of him but I think he has quite a nice side profile.
So happy~ making icons is so much fun. Credits to colorfilter, fangirl_inc.
Nini @ 6:37 PM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Time is so short for me these days, so I'll try to finish writing this post in 5 minutes.
Yesterday's SS paper was lovely HELL. I was delighted when the SEQ questions were on Merger & Separation, Northern Ireland and Welfare state. After I happily finished SEQ and happily turned to SBQ, it was like 晴天霹雳. OMG! Damn difficult lah!
Now I'm struggling to finish Geog and Bio which looks impossible, so I decided I shall finish Bio by today (I try...) and do the rest of Geog tomorrow after English Papers.
I feel so deprived of photoshop while I'm so busy. I promised Qiuhong that I will make a Jun Ki icon for her but now I just don't have the time. I found some great websites with great brushes and textures just now and I bookmarked them for later, even though I'm so tempted to begin mass downloading now. Haix. I think I will only have time for photoshop on weekends.
I think I will start to pia Bio now. Ciao!
Nini @ 1:03 PM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
I went hysterical just now when I thought my social studies notes and textbook was gone. Although I was planning on giving up SSH, I still have to pass it at least. I was practically crying hell when they were nowhere to be found.
Luckily it was only hidden in my bag.
I realised in despair that I'm still unable to do those geog questions (that I've done for dozens of times) no matter how hard I study it. T.T
Does this mark the end of me? I think it does.
Nini @ 6:21 PM
Friday, November 03, 2006
Today I went high and downloaded more than 50 sets of brushes, mostly icon ones. Am feeling extremely satiated now. The joy, oh teh joy~
Today I finally understood the joy of icon making. As such, I'm still mass downloading pictures and brushes and glued to photoshop.
I can imagine right now (right now!), waileng pointing fingers at me and sneering "shouldn't you be studying?"
BUT! I finished studying all physical geog chapters today and feels no guilt doing what I'm doing now. Heh heh...
Nini @ 5:36 PM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
I'm getting
I sit in front of books everyday, but no knowledge seems to have gotten into my brain. Exams are such a burden; I want it to end, and somehow I don't.
I think I'm getting a little hysterical nowadays. Maybe I should just take a break? (but it feels sinful to take breaks =.=)
Nini @ 5:00 PM