Thursday, June 28, 2007
Haven't written anything in chinese for a long time. I think my chinese standard has fallen drastically. No longer can I write anything touching anymore, no.
But yes, Fruits Basket ending is really touching. Espacially the 2nd last book where everyone got released from curse. It was something that brought so much misery to everyone, but yet they were sad to let it go. I can't say how many times I cried while reading that part. I'll still cry if I read it again now, because I could really feel their feelings of relief, happiness mixed with regret. That's why I love this series so much. It is touching and meaningful, but not dull because there's always a pinch of humour now and then, here and there.
On a happier note, COMMON TEST is FINALLY O V E R!!! W O O H O O!!! Don't think I've done very well but I'm just glad it's over. I'm relieved too! Oh man next would would probably feel more like a holiday than the whole of June. I have never felt so excited and burden-less before. It feels like the 500kg weight that I've been shouldering for so long has finally disappeared! Now finally I can fangirl in peace (and do some other stuff of course...).
Nini @ 7:42 PM
已经结束了，一切已经结束了.
水果篮已经到了最后一章，最后一份感动，竟如此令人震撼.
每个人都得到了解脱，每个人都得到了快乐；幸福的令人想哭.
然而我的眼泪却不停的流，因为太伤感，太寂寞了. 寂寞就像十二生肖离开了神一样，因为离别而感到寂寞. 因为曾经有着彼此的陪伴，太久了，所以离别让人感到寂寞.
到了最后，结束让我觉得好空虚，因为觉得以后再也没有什么好期待的.
之后，书里的一点一滴，每字每句，仍然轻轻打动我心中的涟漪.
轻轻地，静静地，反反复复.
一本好书，就能这样带给人如此不可思议的感动. 谢谢你.
Nini @ 7:19 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
People wake up feeling exceptionally fresh after a night of good dreams.
And so I finally dreamt of Sungie again, OMG. I was at their concert and I was right at the front and I saw Sungie sooooo close up. OMG. He's soooo adorable. OMG. I think I fainted, then finding myself in a different scene where I was walking around in a shopping mall. Then I saw Sungie again. I was so nervous I quickly walked away and suddenly there were bang-bangs and everyone fell to the floor. Then I saw Cho Seung Hui(the killer from Virginia Tech) shooting wildly around. I saw exaggerated bursts of light and then... someone came and said it was just a drill. That's super ridiculous. When I regained myself Sungie was nowhere to be found. Mehh.
Ignoring the completely rude interruption to my Sungie dream, I woke up feeling ever more happy than ever.
Nini @ 8:18 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
The barrier between dreams and reality has been broken; for me, at least. Often I wake up with messy memories because I couldn't tell whether they have really happened or they are just a fragment of my subconscious thoughts. For instance I thought that xiangyi wouldn't be going today because I thought I remember receiving a message from her saying that she wouldn't be going. Then when I went back to check my handphone there was no such message. I presume I must have dreamt of seeing it; but the memory was just so vivid and realistic. Because I dream of things that haven't happened and things that I'm waiting to happen, it often confuses me about what has really happened. Sounds confusing? Because I'm confused.
Yesterday I went to ECE to meet one of the students there, and yes, I do have lots of complain about that lab manager. For 2 days, yesterday and Monday, she has totally disregarded my existance. And just yesterday alone, she has asked for my name twice. Twice! For goodness' sake. Well she's supposed to arrange for me to meet the students, and it seems that it totally didn't occur to her that she should tell me the time for the meeting. As such, I had to wait for four-and-a-half hours. And this four-and-a-half hours wasn't worthwhile (other than the fact that I managed to do lots of maths and thus killing most of my brain cells), because the meeting lasted only for at the most 10 minutes. And it ended so abruptly, leaving me standing there stupidly thinking 'what the hell...'.
It is as important as anything, and now I don't have it.
Ahh... no fangirling for today, boohoo.
Nini @ 12:46 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
I don't know if I'd made the right choice, I really don't know.
Since when have I started questioning my decisions? Since when have I started losing confidence in myself?
Somehow I am regretting that I took up this research project. I just feel so tired everyday and no matter how much I sleep, it's just not enough. It's becoming such a dread to go ECE everyday. I couldn't admit that I'm really tired, I refuse to. I won't give in, I refuse to. But somehow I feel that even if I struggle like mad, I would still be falling into the bottomless pit, falling... falling into nothingness.
Sounds simply pathetic.
And music is not working at all. Usually I would feel much better after listening to Sungie's voice, but nowadays his pleasantly beautiful angelic voice seems to bounce off my ears. The problem lies in me, I think I'm dying. I feel like my life is being sucked out of me day by day.
If I die, I can't fangirl over Sungie anymore. NOOOO!!!!!!!!11one
Jack Sparrow = CHARISMA. Oh yes...
Nini @ 8:49 PM