Wednesday, January 14, 2009
to my 娘亲, stephie(phaiphoepharm~)
but i know she'll forgive me for my lateness. she will, because i'm ninithewise. xD
key has a nice face, very photoshoppable indeed.
Nini @ 5:44 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009
just NOW i was rammaging through the wondrous collection of fonts in dafont looking for fonts to feed my photoshop. and then i bumped into this.
and i just couldn't leave it alone. how cute, a font dedicated to me, ninithewise.
and i swear i didn't do this out of fandom for myself; it's a real font in dafont. anyway i don't fangirl over myself, i only fangirl over sungie. xD
Nini @ 8:24 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
people reflected to me that my previous post was too emo. so to brighten up the day (or night), here's presenting a new layout! well, not by me though, since your beloved NiniTheWise is so busy these days; but a change is always well preferred.
well then... that's all for this post. kinda a post posted for the sake of posting.
Nini @ 9:50 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009
should i blog? my pet gownie has been urging me to blog for days, but i've procrastinated, as usual. but if i don't, my tagboard will be flooded with more of those irrelevant stuff about pigs walking on two legs and gownies balancing on thirteen tentacles.
anyways, i'm in a super good mood now because i just managed to get my photoshop cs4! illegally, though, but i'm still happy! the interface looks wonderful, and i can't wait to explore all the new features included! but i'm not going to do it now. as usual, i'm procrastinating.
i've been saying for days that i have wanted to blog about twilight, but i just wasn't in the mood for it. now i have no idea what about it i wanted to blog about initially, so i think i'll just postpone it until i'm able to recall. and that's another thing procrastinated.
the reason why i'm in such a good mood is because my desktop has finally come back to me, healthy and in one piece. when it was sent for fixing, i felt like i've been living like a zombie. this goes to show that even though i have my lovable macbook air, i still couldn't do without my faithful desktop.
or maybe it's because i'm going to leng's house to bake on thursday? (don't you dare ps me, i'll bite) i'm coming, darling meringues! i've been having an abnormal craze for sweet stuff these days.
my mum's been nagging me to go swimming. not that i don't like swimming, but i just can't stand smelling like chlorine after i swim. and not to mention the torture i'm subjecting to my hair. but i do wanna swim. i haven't swam in a long long time.
i wanna go cycling too! anyone wanna go with me?
everywhere i'm seeing people looking for jobs. luckily (or maybe not), i don't have to worry about that until i come back from shanghai. it is what i planned to do, get a job after i come back and stop slacking around at home everyday. but i think i'm sort of making use of that trip as an excuse to justify my not wanting to get a job. the right thing to do is to actually get a job since last december. now i'm trying not to admit to the fact that even if i wanted to get a job, there may not be jobs available for me anymore. when i think of that it just makes me depressed, and i would force myself to push that unhappy thought away. what a procrastinator i am, always setting aside stuff that are troublesome but important until the last minute. this is just goes to show how lazy i am actually. i know that very soon i won't be able to ignore it any further, but as of now i think i'll just try not to think of it and enjoy my short-lived freedom. should just enjoy life while i can, right?
yet deep down i know that this kind of thinking is wrong.
i've always had the bad habit of setting aside things that i find troublesome. if my parents haven't been there to urge/push/force me to apply for UK universities i would not have done so at all. and i would have regretted it. i hate being pushed by people to do things, but i just can't help but procrastinate as much as i could. and when the deadline get's so tight that i wouldn't be able to make it, i would just cook up some excuse to convince myself that whatever i'm supposed to do, however important, is actually insignificant. if it's such that i need people to push me to get things done, how am i able to survive on my own in the real world? i would be letting alot of chances slip past me, and i would come to regret it. i don't want to live a life with regrets, but right now this seems to be unavoidable. and yet that is also something that i hate to admit, and i always try not to think about it because it gets me depressed as well.
and many times i've dreamt of myself running away. from what exactly? i couldn't remember. but sometimes i can't help but think that these dreams are reflections of me and my life, how i'd always been running away from things i dread..
maybe other than being lazy, i'm probably also cowardly?
Nini @ 8:43 PM