Tuesday, February 22, 2011


hope is paralyzing


there's no such thing as the bright side of life.


always look on the dark, depressing side; maybe then life would seem a little bit brighter.



Nini @ 10:48 PM

Thursday, February 17, 2011


to mourn


no, after so long that empty ache in my heart still remains.


it's lurking somewhere deep in my heart, and sometimes I would tug it out so that I can torture myself with it.
but then it would sink back inside, emptier and hurting more than ever.


and so once in awhile, I would walk along that path again, to remind myself that I am never deserving of whatever I own today.


and again, hope is paralyzing.



Nini @ 6:23 PM

Saturday, February 12, 2011


"日有所思夜有所梦."


so that's what they say.


but when i don't miss anyone. even if i do i won't dream of them.
i always tend to dream of those i've never though of in a very long time.
and my dreams then gets me thinking of them.


am i living in a dream, or is my dream dictating my reality? or maybe my mind is dreaming, yet my body is stuck in reality.


but in my dreams i feel no pain, only fantasy.


off-topic: my dreams are often the reason for my failing to wake up.



Nini @ 6:59 PM