Thursday, June 29, 2006
我太喜欢Kangta了啦。 因为他感觉上会是一个很好的哥哥。因为它看起来是一个很温柔很可爱很善良的人。Haha 如果我真的又哥哥的话我大概会有恋兄情结吧。不过Kangta笑的时候真的好温柔哦。
Nini @ 8:46 PM
本来想写老巫婆JTan的事，写她如何企图向我们施压，如何被我们的不屑打败。真是个失败的人。我倒没被她的废话影响，只是觉得眼睛很干很不舒服。她一出去眼睛就觉得好多了，果然眼不见为净。说我们的座位不是学习的理想环境，说我们不认真的话会死得很惨。什么吗？居然把'their'说成'di-ar'，可见她也好不到哪里去。
我才懒得管呢。 今天发生了更惊心动魄的事；不，简直就是吓死我了。刚在JE上MRT, 就走进了一个人。我是看着他走进来的。根本就是一个流氓的样子，脸上一副人家欠了他几百万的样子，好可怕。我还以为他真的很生气，因为他一直用种充满凶气的眼神看着外面，可是外面并没有人。不过我到不敢正视他，因为我怕他会不爽我看他然后扁我。不过我可以感觉到他一直不停的用那种凶恶的眼神瞄我，吓死我了。后来有一个也是RV的女学生走进来。当她刚踏进MRT的时候，那个男的突然大声的打喷嚏，吓得她跳走，我也吓到跳了一下。我觉得很好笑，很想笑，可是又不敢笑，因为我怕他扁我。所以我就假装在跟朋友sms的时候趁机笑个够。我真的sms了leng, 趁机装移注意力。MRT开往Bukit Batok的时候，他就一直站在那里大声地骂粗话，简直不堪入耳。吓死人了。我不敢往上看，只是一直低着头，慌张地按着手机。好可怕哦！我往旁边看了一下，发现每个人都面向另一边，只有我是面向这个疯子的。是不是很勇敢啊？不，不是，是我太白痴了，笨到不会早一点站到其他地方。我只能懦弱地站在原地发抖。后来终于到了Bukit Batok, 我装着很镇静地走了出去，其实心里巴不得马上冲出去。出地铁站后便买了一块白色巧克力给自己压压惊。出去后感到前所未有的安心，好像自己道鬼门关绕了一圈的感觉。从来没有过这样的恐惧。好可怕。后来想想也满好笑的。记得我下车前他骂了一句："打不死的蟑螂！"，让我哭笑不得，因为我怕他扁我。
我决定以后再也不要一个人搭地铁了。太可怕了。
Nini @ 5:04 PM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Woo! I think I'm going crazy over Kangta. Kekekeke. He's got a great voice and he dances well and he makes great music and he is simply adorable! Daisuki! His songs are great and I love his ballads; much better than what I hear in school everyday. No! There is absolutely no comparision! XD I like him better when his hair was a little longer a few years back. But he's cute nevertheless. Kiiii~ He plays the piano very well too. Wouldn't it be so cool when he sings while playing the piano? Hannyaan~
I liked Rain a few years back too, when he wasn't as popular as now. Ever since he began stripping and became popular he doesn't seem so likable anymore. Oh well, since Faizad is a die-hard fan of Rain's. I'm looking forward to see 肥仔 dance. XD
I like Shinhwa too. Their songs are nice but that's all.
1 more thing. Kangta is NOT gay! He is straight! XD
Nini @ 7:42 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
JTan didn't come to school today. Maybe the hairs on her leg fell off. But I'm not complaining; I'm more than happy! xD
Designed a poster within 2 hours during CCA. It turned out to be quite satisfying although the left side of the poster and the right side doesn't really look nice together. Oh well I shall use photoshop and make it look great. It's all over the walls in school now, so no one has any reason to miss it. xD
李准基 acted in the movie <<王的男人>>. He look just so... female. He really got a pretty face, although he isn't very shuai；AND definitely not as shuai as my Kangta. xD
Life is exciting when you are sitting with qiuhui. 所以我很期待回学校。因为终于有笑话可以看了。（不对，应该是 "宝"）xD
P.S. Maybe if Vanness teaches us english we would really be learning how to rap. xD
Nini @ 10:15 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006
Hell knows what this word means. I don't understand the definition on dictionary.com either.
But who cares. This is the song that made me go crazy over Kangta. Well the song and its MV did. Nice song and charming MV. Kangta is so adorable and simply --- SHUAI. The song by him and Vanness was great too; so is the MV. This extremely cool song is called Scandal Daisuki daisuki dayo ~~ Wouldn't it be so very pleasant if Kangta comes and teaches geography? I definitely will not fall asleep during geography lessons. I don't care even if I don't understand what he's talking about; I just want to see his face. xD
I was telling qiuhui today during english lesson, "JTan 就像那种装可爱想要 attract attention 的老女人." Gross. She keeps doing things as she feels like it, forcing us to change our sitting arrangement. I'm very happy with the current sitting arrangement so NO THANK YOU! How about changing a new english teacher? I'll be most happy. Best if Vanness takes Jtan's place and teach english. Then we won't end up doing useless and meaningless stuff. A bad teacher is one who fails to ge the attention of students. JTan has failed in that, and she couldn't even teach properly. She's an utter failure altogether.
Manzz... met some really NOT sane guys on 176. There was this fat guy who keep on stroking his friend's hair. So gay. He's singing 曹操 all the way; and he only seems to know that particular line. Worst still he's off-tune. Crap. What an insult to my ears. ANd after a while I spotted him sitting on his friends legs. Gay! They must be gay! Leng suggested that I should act as a member of the public and report them to their school. What a pity they're not wearing uniform. Or else I will not let them off that easily for insulting my eyes and ears and nose. The stench was totally unbearable too!
Haiz nevermind. I shall finish this luscious piece of creamy chocolate cake and go take my beauty sleep. Nitex ~
Nini @ 4:35 PM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Been sleeping since I've got home yesterday. It was a extremely boring and meaningless day. I went to school for what was considered as "school warming" and all I did was walked around the school, ate pathetic sausage mcmuffin without cheese and stood under the hot sun for 1 and a half hours. That's why I deserved these long hours of sleep.
CCA was much more meaningful. We had our farewell party and we ate pizza and cake. The cake was really super creamy. Hmm... love it! WE played some stupid game and Fujian had to do forfeit because he lost. In the end, after long time of discussion, Fujian sang 3 songs. It was extremely high-pitched and thank goodness it wasn't very loud. After CCA leng and I finally took the right bus to JE. [97] I love you!
School will be starting next week. I don't feel that I enjoyed my holiday at all. It wasn't even a holiday to me. Why did they even bother giving holidays in the first place? It's frustrating to see how those teachers act as if we had a great holiday. Yeah right.
Nini @ 2:14 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
I changed my layout again. I was too bored and had to do something or I'll fall asleep again. I liked this layout alot, but I prefer it without the contents because I think it makes the layout look very cramped. Nevertheless it was a nice layout, quite different from what I'd designed.
Did nothing today. Or would you classify 2 maths questions as "something"? I still have 1 jian bao and 1 essay left (which I dread), and not forgetting history homework. It looks difficult but I don't plan on working on it as I don't even know what I'm supposed to do. (I remember we are to make notes on some event...)
I guess I'll just have to finish the remaining 1 and a half maths question and continue slacking.
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Noticed that I have put up a clock and a calendar on my blog? Cute isn't it? And looking at the calendar, I suddenly realised that there's still a week until the end of June. So is the June holiday really ending this week or are they robbing us of that precious 1 week? It's very suspicious.
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Nini @ 5:09 PM
I just can't seem to get enough sleep these days; especially when I had to wake up at 6.30am yesterday and slept from 1am till 1pm today. I've slept for 12 hours, yet I still feel sleepy. My eyes are dropping and I can't seems to concentrate on anything. The food I eat tastes bland and photoshop does not seem interesting anymore. Am I going to die? It feels like the end of the world. I feel like Sakura who has lost her feathers (aka. memories). I just feel sleepy and my mind's in a whirl. It feels like I can fall asleep anytime while I'm typing now. Have to go back to school for some stupid school warming tomorrow. I have to wake up early in the morning again; even earlier than yesterday. I need sleep desperately now.
Talking about the new school campus, I don't like it at all although it is quite new. I feel very tense inside. Maybe it's because there are too many buildings and no trees. I just feel so small and I have the feeling of being trapped inside the school. I kinda miss the old school campus back in commonwealth. I miss the mango trees, the jambu trees and simply the spaciousness. Oh well I won't be staying there for too long anyway, so I think I'll be able to manage it.
Nini @ 3:28 PM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
At last! the long-dreaded oral exam is over! Woohoo! I'm very bu shuang and so is Mr Faizad i think because I did horrible for it. It was the worst oral exam I've ever taken. I think half the time I've been pausing and thinking. The things I say doesn't make sense, and I gave stupid answers to stupid questions. I kept on thinking in chinese. I wanted alot to say "过程是最重要的" in English but I stopped for a long time thinking of the english word that means 过程. At the end of the torturing 10 minutes I ran out of the room in shame. RARR! And i found out that the word is process. Intellegence increased! V(^o^)
Oral exams haven't been that bad for me. I guess it's because the examiner is Faizad that's why my mind went blank. Haiz... Nevermind, it's English anyway, and it does not make any difference whether I do well for it or not. I shan't be too bothered by it.
Yesterday I sms-ed Leng and said that I wanna see Kangta sitting there when I go in for oral. She said I had better not imagine Faizad as Kangta otherwise I might blurt out and say "wo ai ni ah!". Kekeke. I did nothing ridiculous as that but if Kangta was really there I might faint the second I step in. Luckily he's not. I can't imagine Kangta prompting me on those dumb questions. >.< Ridiculous -.-
Went out to eat lunch with manly just now. The beef fan-tastic was unusually satiating.
Usually I would be sleeping at this time. Woke up so early today and I'm feeling very sleepy now. But I guess I should make use of the precious time alone at home to do some meaningful stuff.
I think I'll just bump off to knock some sense outta me. Ciao!
Nini @ 12:25 PM
Monday, June 19, 2006
I haven't posted in a long time. Life is getting extremely boring. It's the last week of the holidays and I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad. Maybe if I were to go back to school i won't be feeling this bored. Maybe if I can play maple and watch television at home I won't mind if the holiday lasted for a year. It feels weird to know that I had almost finished all my homework. I feel lazy but I get the feeling that there's something to be done and i have not done it. It's a weird feeling; and I don't like it at all. I'm starting to lose interest in photoshop. Or is my right brain beginning to fail? Let me exercise some creativity now.
Imagine... imagine....
Imagine if the skies are red, and Waileng is pink.
Imagine if Eunice manages to slim down and wears size 38 uniform.
Imagine if all my homework are done and I'm allowed to play maple.
WHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Imagine... imagine...
Imagine if I go back to school on Friday and sees SJL with breasts, wearing wedding gown, high heeled shoes, his hair long, silky and permed and he's gliding towards me with his arms wide open.
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ARGHH!!! NO!!! STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!! *falls down the chair*
Nini @ 2:38 PM
Friday, June 16, 2006
I'm getting frustrated over doing my homework. It's like no matter how desperately hard I struggle to do it, the amount of homework never seems to decrease. It's ridiculous how my holidays are spent. The school might as well replace the holidays with lessons for doing assignments. I'm tired of sitting in front of the pile of paper every morning (well, afternoon). My life's ridiculously boring.
Chinese is the worst ever. I have to write a total of 4 pieces of crap. I don't get it. Why are they making us write the same things over and over again? I remember writing on how parents and teachers should not give students too much stress and should give them freedom; and now they are throwing pieces of papers at us, robbing us of the freedom to enjoy our holidays. It's not wrong to give holiday homework, but it's ridiculous to give so much that I feel that my life is being restrained by it. Teachers stuff work to us as if we only have to do their homework. Don't they think that we need a break too?
I can just imagine Ms Ek wearing her oversized bikini, sprawling on the beach, embracing the sunlight and I'm stuck at home hugging my homework.
Why is 933 playing all those ancient songs again? 933 is getting stupid.
Nini @ 11:46 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Can anyone tell me what this word means? The brush looks great, but I don't know the meaning of this word. It sounds nice but I can't use it if it is not conherent with my layout right? Right...? It's not English I'm sure, so maybe it's French? Or some other language (although I highly suspect it's French).
Nevermind that. I just finished designing a new layout! Hooray! \(^o^)/ It's kinda different from the layouts i designed before because I didn't use any stars this time. (* v *) It looks great too! Kekekeke. But I suppose I won't use it on my blog any sooner. Haiz...
Other than that, I found a site with many 'interesting' brushes. It would be very useful to use it to deal with Bee Hoon and SJL just in case they make me design any other poster. Kekekeke... Anyways I put together something using those brushes within a minute yesterday. Here's the result :
Freaky isn't it? It'll definitely scare Bee Hoon outta her fake butt I swear!
[ Well the "kekekekeke" wasn't suppose to be there. I just put it there because i was feeling mischievous. ^o^ ]
I've been playing with photoshop too much these days, failing miserably on trying to concentrate on doing my homework. Halp... ::(>.<)::
I always type photoshop as phothoshop. What's wrong with my fingers... manzz...
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It turned out that 'nattetimen' is German; the meaning is still unknown.
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Nini @ 4:23 PM
Monday, June 12, 2006
I'm so damned bored. I don't have motivation to do homework at all. Last week there were 5 chem assignments glaring at me and I had to do them. But after I finished doing them I lost all motivation. It's like I've done my job and now its time to rest. It's break time! Yah yah? There's really alot more to do and I just don't feel like doing them. Haiz...
RARR!! I'm a little pissed off with Faizad. 肥仔. English is crap. I don't like english. What has been a necessity to people has become a burden to me. I'm just bad at things that are made up of ABC, for goodness sake. And oral! ORAL's next week! With 肥仔 too! NOOOO!!!!!!!! Anyone but him!!!!!!!!!! I hope he will fall ill on that day and some other teacher will take us for oral. I don't want 肥仔 to be my examiner for oral. I'll definitely stutter and... and... RARR!!! 反正我就会变成一个语无伦次的白痴就对了！Wheeeww... chinese is so much more blissful.
The songs on 933 are crap. Why are they playing songs that are a decade older than me? WHY O WHY? They're more like noise pollution to me. To hell with 933! RARR!!!
I'm feeling cold even though its not cold and I didn't on the air con. Thinking of oral with 肥仔 is enough to make me faint. Jeez... it's getting colder...
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I don't like 洪俊扬. he got that face that makes me feel like bashing him up. 欠扁的脸, ya know. And he copies how 林俊杰 sings. Despicable! I don't like 黎明 too. He likes to touch himself. 变态的老男人. Suddenly was reminded of him because his songs are coming up on 933. RARR!!!!!!!!
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Nini @ 4:04 PM
Alright, I'm typing this post using one hand while my other hand is frantically scratching my toe. Stupid mozzie, why can't it bite somewhere else other than my toes? It's damn itchy. My house has never been visited my mozzies; and this particular one seems to haunt the study room only. Maybe I will saturate this room with insecticide and wipe out all the mozzies in my study room. Whakakakaka!!!
It's not the point really...
ANW. Tadaa! This is my new layout. Isn't it cute? I got the cute picture (the girl flying on whales) from Zeiva Inc Productions. I really admire how she can draw so well; and colour so well too! I won't be able to do that even if I've got a thousand years. Haiz... I wanted to force myself to use bright colours but I suppose the layout still turned out a bit dark isn't it? But I really like the sunset effect in the background. \(^o^)/
I think I'm changing my layouts a little fast. But there's so many (maybe not that many) designs in my computer I just can't help but use it. I mean, what's the point of designing a layout when I never use it? Right? Right...?
Nini @ 2:31 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
好无聊，生活真的好无聊。似乎一切都失去了色彩，人生变得暗淡。我已经失去了自我存在的意识，无聊慢慢地侵蚀着我的灵魂。活着，就是为了存在着，没有任何意义。或许有，就是学习。每天除了吃饭睡觉之外就是学习。学着学着就变得麻木了，对一切其他事物失去了兴趣。我的世界与白纸黑字变成了共同色系。学习以外的一切都变成了沉闷话题。一开始觉得很反感，接触的是浅浅的无聊。后来慢慢习惯了在无聊的空间里生存，也觉得无所谓了。无聊成为了我的好朋友，不断陪在我的身边。是我们的感情那么好呢，还是是它死缠烂打不放。呵呵，我已经搞不清楚了。
看来最搞不清初状况的白痴是我才对吧。被无聊这个"好朋友"慢慢带入白痴的地带。没有反抗，也没有挣扎，呆呆地任凭它把我的灵魂带入停滞状态。真是白痴。
人活在这个世界上，偶尔也要挣扎一下，否则生活就太无聊了。
说起来，这也真是个无聊的post.
Nini @ 1:14 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
Woolala! I'm high early in da morning. Well it's not exactly morning considering that I woke up at 1pm and spent an hour bathing and eating. Who cares, I've been designing until 1am you know. Kekekekeke. \(^o^)/ woohoo.
Then again, I hate my homework. I managed to finish chem, but there's still loads more waiting for me, staring at me menacingly. I just wanna throw them in da fire! RARR! Doing physics now. I hate logic gates, I can't think logically. My left brain isn't anywhere as developed as my right. Sad lah... I swear that I won't and definitely will not do engineering in the future. RARR!
Gahh I'm getting distracted. But the photoshop just looks so seductive, flashing in front of me. o(>.<)o
*pastes physics assignment in front of my face*
Nini @ 2:03 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
昨晚发生了很不可思议的事情；至少对我来说是不可思议的。
昨晚看电视看到11点。当我在关窗的时候，我看见了美丽的景色。一刹那间，我突然有一股想要跳出窗外的冲动。 也许是那廖静吸引了我，也许只是外面的灯火辉煌太动人。那一刻，我只想要越过玻璃的束缚，向闪烁的自由飞去。我喜欢这么寂静的夜晚，因为在这时，世界是最自由的。人类都回家了，世界不再被人类的繁忙践踏， 展现着它最自然的一面。看着这样的世界，让我有一种很平静的感觉。我真得很想跳出去，感受这样自然的世界。
不，我并不是心理不平衡，也没有自杀的倾向。我只是一刹那间被那美丽的夜景所吸引。我不是一个轻易抛弃生命的人。无论我有多么自私，我也不会为了逃避而自杀。侑子说得对；没有人是完全属于自己的。自己受到伤害，关心的人都会感到难过。就算自己并不心疼自己，但也要为别人的心着想。人类的能耐有限，要报答别人对自己的关心，唯一能做的就是好好保护自己。人类真的是身在福中不知福，把别人对自己的关心当成理所当然。相比之下，世界真的好可怜。它不断地为人类付出，给予了他们一个身存之处与那么丰富的资源。然而人类不但不懂得珍惜，反而不断地在地糟踏这个世界。世界是多么伟大，无私的复出，却从不在乎得不得到人类的回报。因此，只要有人愿意为我而哭泣，我就不会让自己死。
夜景是那么美丽；若我死了，就再也不能欣赏这个世界的珍宝。为了它，我愿意坚强地活下去。这是我对它最低界限的尊敬。
Nini @ 1:34 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
这一天都在下雨；从我醒来就一直下个不停。我喜欢雨。它默默地净化这污浊的世界。它让世界变得好廖静；即使只是一下而已。天空在哭泣，因为人类在不断地摧毁这个世界。世界如果没有了人类，是否会更幸福? 人类不断地对世界造成伤害，还是人类消失，让世界自由地活；哪一个未来会更美丽？
这是非常矛盾的事实。我为世界感到悲伤，不希望世界继续被伤害。当我也不想失去。我不想失去我在这个世界上的存在感，也不想失去我所关心，和关心我的人。对我而言，这个世界有我所爱的人存在。如果这些人不存在的话，世界就跟不存在是一样的。这是我的自私，也是我的执著。所以，我只能说 :
"对不起"
就让这场雨一直下，让雨水洗去人类的罪孽，净化他们的心灵。
Nini @ 6:01 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
Okay this is dumb. I spent more than and hour trying to write the post (the one below) and all I can come up with is such a short paragraph of something completely different from what I was planning to write initially. Dumb. This made me very bu shuang because I wasted an hour with less than 1% productivity. ROAR!
I was feeling very strongly about it before I came home. And after I reached home and switched on the computer, my mind went blank. -.-'''
Well I heard alot of gossips today. it was quite interesting listening to it at that time, then after that I realised I've been too naive. So naive to think that people in my class were innocent. I suppose the innocent and stupid one is me. Nevermind. Originally I wanted to write how fake life is and how stupid I was .
那些人都是居心叵测的笨蛋，笑里藏刀的坏人！坏人！
In the end I ended up writing something completely different and irrelevant. The content isn't coherent with the title at all. Damn. -.-
Nini @ 3:30 PM
我还以为世界是纯洁的。
这种想法实在是太天真了。这个世界有像[人]这样的存在，是不可能纯洁的。人类真得很虚伪，亲手把世界毁灭，却有一味地想要净化它。如果那么在意世界，为什么当初要沾污它？在继续这样下去，世界迟早会死亡的。受到污染，并失去再生的能力。地球也是活生生的，和[人]一样。然而，杀害地球的就是[人]。[人]不断地增加人口，却一点也不知改进。他们忽略了地球也是个生命体，只会不断的蹂躏它。地球就快死了，而[人]始终不断地自残。真是可悲啊。
Nini @ 2:25 PM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Aw~~~~~ I fell in love with bunnies. Aren't they the cutest thing in the world? They're just so furry and soft and cuddly. And the look in their eyes simply melts my heart. I love those tiny-eared and furry ones. They just look so cuddly; like a furball!
Hannyaann~~~ *melts*
I wanna a dozen of these in my arms and cuddle them. =^o^=
Look at those fascinating big eyes~ O.O
Aw~~~ I want to keep bunnies but I don't think my mum will allow. Haiz... TT.TT
Nini @ 6:40 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
I was just listening to James Blunt's You're Beautiful on 933. Laughed my way throughout the song. It's just so funny, especially his voice. Special or weird, it's up you to decide; but to me, it's just... queer. Oh well...
Talking about beautiful, I've been looking for beautiful pictures to make layouts. I've got bored with making layouts using anime pictures only. I've also learnt to use textures instead of using brushes alone; textures gives the layout a more beautiful background. Brushes make nice layouts, textures too; so do Ayumi Hamasaki and Mika Nakashima. They are really very beautiful, they look flawless; most importantly, they make my layout look good. Kakakakakaka!
Nini @ 7:00 PM
Friday, June 02, 2006
Woosh! Finally finished my Ayumi layout. (u_u)zzz So tired... but it turned out satisfactory, and I'm happy. \(^O^)/
Haven't touched my holiday homework yet. Didn't want to start doing it yet; I'm too lazy! (/>.<)/ and obssessed over designing too. (T-T) Now I don't know what to write. Maybe I'll go watch tv.
Ja.
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Ate 2 Big mangoes today. Chao happy. (o^v^o)
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Nini @ 8:30 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
I'm getting obssessed, I'm getting obssessed with les and such. When I draw I want to draw naked girls (note : it's girls), when I make layouts I use pictures which features 2 girls together. No I'm not les, but the idea of 2 girls together is just so nice. How do i say it? It's very 唯美.I like Ayumi Hamasaki. Her album pictures are very beautiful, especially the pictures in BALLADS which features 2 Ayumis together. It's les, but it's nice. I'm currently looking for beautiful (and high-quality) pictures of Ayumi but I can find are those small and blur and low-quality ones. *ROAR!*
I want to learn CSS but it looks difficult to get the hang of it. I have a pretty good idea of what it's about but I'm not too clear about the details. I need to learn more to make nice layouts.
I have all kinds of ideas up in my head but it just makes me confused and I don't know which one I should use first.
Nini @ 5:31 PM