Monday, April 23, 2007
And suddenly I'm happy again, because my baobei is always there to make my life shine! Hoho.
I felt so much more cheerful after I read auntie dawn's column because it's awesomely (is there such a word?) funny. Go read it too if you are in a bad mood. Auntie Dawn rocks! Support President Dawn!!! OMG!!!!!
Life might be miserable, but on a happier note, I'm going to watch horror movie with dearest qiuhui this saturday! YAYYAY!!! I miss kiwi so so muchie >.< (even with sungie by my side everyday...) XD And it's half day on Thursday! But I would be happier if it's full day.
With creamy white chocolate swimming in my stomach now, everything looks sweeter, and I'm loving everything I see. (But no, I won't love moleyeo if she appears right before my eyes now)
Khoo is horrible as ever, but she can fly to the moon herself.
If I'm suffering from this kind of random mood swings everyday, I won't live till eighty (which I aim to).
Nini @ 8:34 PM
Right now I'm just sick of everything in life; I'm sick of life. I'm sick of PI and all those homework that are piling up, and I'm sick of being unable to finish them no matter how hard I work through the nights. I'm sick of my mum calling me to wash the dishes everyday, and I'm sick of the fact that she refuses to see that I'm also busy, stressed and tired; that's why I really hate it when my dad goes overseas because I have to take on the ever tedious job of mum-management. I'm even more sick of coming to my blog everyday and seeing it dead as ever; the black layout really doesn't help at all. Maybe I should go hiatus too.
PI is getting irritating. My ST is not helping at all, at least that's what I feel because the so-called advices she gave me are not useful at all. Maybe I'm dumb, but I just don't see the point of doing a survey as a form of getting information when the only information I need is the history of film, and it can be all found on the internet. An interview sounds manageable, but right now I'm giving my faithful worker-brain-cells a break because they are all tired out after failing to decifer the graphing notes. PI is due tomorrow morning, should I stuff my head into the freezer and pray for peaceful death? Somehow I feel that I would eventually die of suffocation rather than freeze to death. Oh well, wither is better than having my head get bitten off my my ST.
Went to help out for the harmonica SYF today. I felt bored and at the end of the day I would rather go for lessons. They achieved gold with honours, hooray for them. Truthfully I wasn't as happy, because it really has nothing to do with me. It's not a good thing to say, especially when I had already joined this cca, but somehow I just don't feel very bonded. It just feels like they are a group, and I am just by myself. And xiangyi is not joining, so I'm really on my own now.
I haven't blogged for ages, and the only reason I blog today is to vent my frustrations. Life couldn't get worst. My world is still so small, and I don't think I want to see it grow, because one day it's gonna get too big for me to carry on my shoulders.
Nini @ 5:49 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
It's abit early but,
Happy Birthday!!
To teh awesome xiangyi, my father who's in concentration camp.
*clapclapclapclapclap*
I was struggling with her birthday card yesterday because I had to finish it by today. It wasn't like what I had in mind but since I had little time and poor quality pictures it was the best I could do.
Now that I'm done with this I have to start doing my econs essay else I really can't imagine what witch ng will do when I go to school without her homework tomorrow.
Nini @ 1:59 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
As expected, good friday went past as silently as it came. I didnt even feel that there's a holiday at all. Well, more likely it's because I slept through half of it, but still feeling ever more tired.
Was feeling ill on good friday, my nose really feels like it's gonna drop off. Gobbled down a few panadol tablets and once again I'm sitting in front of the computer digging photoshop. Tough labour, really.
Have to get down to making a birthday greeting for xiangyi now, I really won't have time to do so tomorrow, but now I have comepletely no inspiration at all, and the pictures I got are of terrible quality, god knows how I'm gonna survive with them. Alas, deviantart is a great place for resources.
And I still haven't bought a present for xiangyi; I should've bought it on thursday, I know, but it wasn't there. Now I have one more thing troubling me, other than piles of unfinished homework which includes 2nd draft for PI.
Thus there's no way for me to say 'Happy Easter' happily. Boohoo.
Nini @ 9:20 AM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
This is ridiculous. Just as I was getting to used to school with xiangyi and I in different classes, now I have to try to survive school without xiangyi OMG. And I went home alone, lonely and ever lonelier; I've never gone home alone for once in a million years!
Oh yes, the war has torn apart my family; my father been put into concentration camps, my mother feeding cows. Halp anyone, salvage my broken family and my broken heart.
Struggling with my PI still, and the theme for the day is still do it today or die tomorrow.
Nini @ 4:29 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
How I wish I could hold sungie's hand and walk down the lonely lonely road... Kyaa!
And just a few days after I went back into the happy mode I find myself sinking into depression again. Life is just so boring without xiangyi, haix... My life has never been so boring before, and the only funny thing I found myself laughing at is leng (almost) falling down the stairs.
And the project work file is staring menacingly at me; and even though I'm constantly reminding myself to start doing my PI, I have made no progress at all. Although I have quite an idea of what I'm going to do, it's just so hard to put it into words.
There's 2.4km run tomorrow ZOMG! I think I'm so gonna die.... DIE! But oh well, either die in the run or get killed by my emotionless pw tutor. T.T
Haven't been doing any designing for ages, miss photoshop lots.
How I wish someone would help me outta this mess, how I wish sungie would appear right now.
Nini @ 6:45 PM