Thursday, July 12, 2007
I happily ponned olympiad training today and went home to sleep.
I slept from 5.30 to 8 and had suddenly woken up thinking that it's another morning. Another morning where the tv was on at top volume and I think my mum was banging the pots and pans. Because it was considerably cold today, and that I've had a dream too, I didnt realise that it was only two and a half hours after I reached home. It felt wonderful because I feel like I've slept through whole night and I can get to sleep some more later.
Common test was completely horrible. Well, actually I didn't really mind getting an 'E' for chemistry now to think about it although 'A' would be really good. But considering the effort I spent on this 'E' is already kinda heart-warming. Just like manly said, people who get 'A's mug, I don't. That's right, nothing is wrong with a healthy 'E'. Well neither is 'S' too, it's a fail, yes, but S is for Sungie right...
Nini @ 8:44 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
I was watching this dumb movie on channel U and I suddenly realised something:
1. I really want to eat prata now
2. I really want to ride a motobike, isn't it uber cool?
3. I'm completely obsessed over Sungie darling; well not like that's anything new...
4. I'm going chocolate making tomorrow! WOOHOO!!!
5. I still wanna play final fantasy at Huan's house.
I rock. HOHOHO.
Nini @ 10:06 PM
I'm really a bad person. I think I'll go to hell after I die. I'm doing things against my own conscience, and I don't think I have any left anymore.
No I don't want to go to hell, I don't want to go to heaven either. The concept of reincarnation sounds much better to me. Because if there is reincarnation, if I can live again after I die, then death won't sound so scary after all. I'm just afraid that one day when I wake up (or maybe never), I'll find that I'm never be able to do anything again. I can never play with my darling photoshop, or fangirl in the middle of the night again. If death brings me to nothingness, I don't want it, because there's so much things left undone. I don't want death to end everything. I want to have another life, become another human, so that I can live a better life, a considerably less miserable life than what I'm going through now.
I won't mind becoming a ghost either. Because I can still roam around or creep up to somebody's house to watch tv, or play with their photoshop at night, or go to places where I may never be able to go to in my whole life. Oh being a ghost sounds wonderful...
I wonder what will really happen when I die. All the secrets of life and death, I can't wait to find out, or do I?
That's such a weird post, but weird things always happen in my miserable life. Oh yes, there's nothing to look forward to anymore.
Nini @ 11:09 AM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
I've had enough. If I can live through sec 3 over and over again I won't be feeling so depressed and frustrated now.
Damn I'm so sick of life; even fangirling won't work now.
Nini @ 5:16 PM