Wednesday, October 12, 2011
it's been awhile since i've had the feeling of truly being in deep shit. and yet i'm just here, doing nothing and waiting for myself to finally sink into despair.
if this goes on i'm just gonna destroy everything i've built up for myself.
i was never like this, i hate myself for being like this, and my heart hurts to see myself in such a situation.
or is it from fear?
oh how terribly i have fallen.
right now i just couldn't face my dreams anymore, and i am ashamed to still say that i do want to succeed.
because i don't deserve to. and i know that i don't deserve to.
i need to pull myself together again. i need to force myself to start doing again. because it's the only thing i'm living for.
Nini @ 8:56 PM