Wednesday, November 29, 2006
There it is, the horrible feeling of emptiness again.
It suddenly occurred to me that going to Japan may not be such a good thing. For the first time in my life, I fear taking the plane. Now I know why I love staying at home so much. Because I don't have to do anything, I will not do anything wrong. Right now I'm just feeling, pathetic.
Maybe I just felt lonely and sad because I can't go grad night and while everyone is having fun I'm stuck on the little seat on the plane. No, by then everyone would have fallen asleep.
Everytime I think of the ugly winter clothes and the busy schedule I just feel depressed even more. I really hope, really, that this trip would not be as bad as I think.
So I pray, and pray.
'Everyday I Pray to help me through the day
to make myself stronger...and I Pray' -- Shinhwa, Once in a Lifetime
Nini @ 5:52 PM