Monday, April 23, 2007
Right now I'm just sick of everything in life; I'm sick of life. I'm sick of PI and all those homework that are piling up, and I'm sick of being unable to finish them no matter how hard I work through the nights. I'm sick of my mum calling me to wash the dishes everyday, and I'm sick of the fact that she refuses to see that I'm also busy, stressed and tired; that's why I really hate it when my dad goes overseas because I have to take on the ever tedious job of mum-management. I'm even more sick of coming to my blog everyday and seeing it dead as ever; the black layout really doesn't help at all. Maybe I should go hiatus too.
PI is getting irritating. My ST is not helping at all, at least that's what I feel because the so-called advices she gave me are not useful at all. Maybe I'm dumb, but I just don't see the point of doing a survey as a form of getting information when the only information I need is the history of film, and it can be all found on the internet. An interview sounds manageable, but right now I'm giving my faithful worker-brain-cells a break because they are all tired out after failing to decifer the graphing notes. PI is due tomorrow morning, should I stuff my head into the freezer and pray for peaceful death? Somehow I feel that I would eventually die of suffocation rather than freeze to death. Oh well, wither is better than having my head get bitten off my my ST.
Went to help out for the harmonica SYF today. I felt bored and at the end of the day I would rather go for lessons. They achieved gold with honours, hooray for them. Truthfully I wasn't as happy, because it really has nothing to do with me. It's not a good thing to say, especially when I had already joined this cca, but somehow I just don't feel very bonded. It just feels like they are a group, and I am just by myself. And xiangyi is not joining, so I'm really on my own now.
I haven't blogged for ages, and the only reason I blog today is to vent my frustrations. Life couldn't get worst. My world is still so small, and I don't think I want to see it grow, because one day it's gonna get too big for me to carry on my shoulders.
Nini @ 5:49 PM