Sunday, July 08, 2007
I'm really a bad person. I think I'll go to hell after I die. I'm doing things against my own conscience, and I don't think I have any left anymore.
No I don't want to go to hell, I don't want to go to heaven either. The concept of reincarnation sounds much better to me. Because if there is reincarnation, if I can live again after I die, then death won't sound so scary after all. I'm just afraid that one day when I wake up (or maybe never), I'll find that I'm never be able to do anything again. I can never play with my darling photoshop, or fangirl in the middle of the night again. If death brings me to nothingness, I don't want it, because there's so much things left undone. I don't want death to end everything. I want to have another life, become another human, so that I can live a better life, a considerably less miserable life than what I'm going through now.
I won't mind becoming a ghost either. Because I can still roam around or creep up to somebody's house to watch tv, or play with their photoshop at night, or go to places where I may never be able to go to in my whole life. Oh being a ghost sounds wonderful...
I wonder what will really happen when I die. All the secrets of life and death, I can't wait to find out, or do I?
That's such a weird post, but weird things always happen in my miserable life. Oh yes, there's nothing to look forward to anymore.
Nini @ 11:09 AM